Love

Well folks, I decided to write this section about my love life for myself. What I mean by that is I don't care so much about advertising to the
world about my past relationships, but I am using this more as a means of journaling to make me feel better. Humm, maybe that sounds weird,
but here goes.

I guess I've had an average amount of relationships in my life but there are three that really stand out. When I was 26 I fell in love with a guy who
I dated for about eight months. I realize now that I had absolutely no idea what love was until I met him. He ended things with me and it was
extremely hard on me, but ultimately it taught me what love was and how it works. As the old saying goes "It is better to have loved and lost,
then to never have loved at all". Well I'm not sure if I agree with that yet or not, but I eventually moved on.

In 2008 I moved to Colorado for a job and started dating a guy a few months after I got there. I didn't stay in Colorado for too long, but I did
start to develop those same love feelings for him while I was there.

I left Colorado for a job in Chicago and met a guy there as well. I was very unhappy in Chicago for multiple reasons (nothing to do with him) so I
eventually choose to leave, but I often think if I had stayed how things would be with him and I. In fact, there are many days when I regret
leaving that miserable place just because I would probably still be with him.

In all three of these cases I didn't realize at the time of the relationship the feelings I actually had. Each time it wasn't until the relationship was
over that I ended up figuring out the feelings that I actually had were stronger then just a casual dating situation. Obviously I didn't mention any
names here, but all three of these guys will always have a special place in my heart. I picture my heart as being a pie chart, and I see three small
sections with their names on it. Hopefully the rest of my heart will be ready for somebody else to come along and put their name on it.

So where do I go from here? Well, lets hope I will meet somebody special and these past experiences will have helped me to understand my
feelings and what I want out of a relationship.